[insert imaginative title here]

can I order the potatoes as a side dish?

2010-11-30T21:24:00.004-05:00

Last published on November 9. Well, it appears that was quite some time ago. Sheesh, Nadine... get a move on.

The end of semester is coming and I think it's at this point that I start to become antsy. Classes are coming to a close, last minute assignments are stacked up. The pile has been rifled through a few times but not much has been actually thought through or completed (or handed in yet, for that matter... with due dates fast approaching!). Somehow I managed to gain a sense of distance from the me that is supposed to be studying like a fanatic and I've encapsulated that 'me' and subsequently ignored it. Bad news? Possibly, but I'm also enjoying these last days, at the end, despite the workload that gets slowly heavier as each date of doom comes nearer.

In other news, I'll be home for Christmas. For real.

huh.

2010-11-09T18:59:00.001-05:00

Sometimes I wonder if God is silent...
but then I think I just don't speak his language very well.

it's coming.

2010-10-25T17:47:00.001-04:00

this is what it looked like two weeks ago.

now, there's snow on the ground.

Christmas is coming.

some days i miss home.

2010-10-21T22:35:00.005-04:00

Life is moving along, seemingly at breakneck speed. My shoes are getting worn out from trying to slow it down.

There are several thoughts in my head, but none that are willing to escape. I suppose they'll stay in there then, at least for a little while. Maybe that's where they belong.
Recent conversation has made me think, I'm not sure if it's in a good way, it's just thought. Thought that goes in ovals.

Some days I just miss home.

But hey, chin up, mister! Don't fret and just live.
Give it up, don't carry the burden yourself, give it up, give it up.

manicures and pedicures.

2010-06-17T08:28:00.003-04:00

So. No more working at the greenhouse.

Seems a little sad and strange, actually.

But I can't lie that I am excited to move on and learn new things from new places. We'll see if I can stick to it next summer... I'm hoping so. I think it will be good for me to scout out new things to do.

My sister is getting married tomorrow and I confess I'm not quite prepared for it. It seems odd and exciting all at once and I'm not sure how to handle it. T-rev is great though, so I can't complain in the least to the addition he's making to our family.

In other news, I'm still trying to figure out where God's pointing me as far as school goes for next year. I despise decision making but I have been and I am going to be doing a lot of it. But, I guess that's okay with me.

2010-02-25T17:04:00.000-05:00

Well, I know what I'm doing this summer.

legwarmers, perchance?

2010-02-23T21:40:00.003-05:00

Bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeegh.

I'm tired. Just thought I'd let you know.

God's providence has been on my mind lately. It's a hard concept for me. I have far too many question about it. I desire to have answers but so often it seems like they aren't there. Time spent in prayer and study is needed.

how lovely!

2010-02-11T10:37:00.004-05:00

Well, my parents are coming to visit. Today.
Needless to say, I am beyond stoked. I, quite honestly, can't wait to see them.

I think that's all that needs to be said. Mmm hmmmmmm.

auf wiedersehen, mein leibes.

please?

2010-01-12T18:52:00.003-05:00

http://www.explodingdog.com

the Lord of the Rings has been on my mind and in my hands.

2010-01-04T14:45:00.002-05:00

Well, dear ones, I'm gone, or back as the case may be. I either miss you or am excited to be with you. I will either see you soon, or not for a few months. But, in either case, in either case, I find that I am glad that you exist, whoever you are. Not because I can see you, or avoid seeing you for some time, but because you mean something to me and in some way, you have helped me get here, looking on the coming year in the way that I do.

I find that there are things to look forward to coming in this year and that delights me. I find that there are things to regret in the past year and that saddens me. But I find also that in all of those things, past and to come, there are constants and comforts. Many of them are the people that I love and that love me. But one, the central one, the one that really matters? Why, he's been there from the start of all things, not just of me. And maybe that is what makes him glorious. I am glad that he steps with me into the mystery before me, for otherwise I step alone. There is a journey before me and yes, there are those who have walked with me and those whom I have left behind and those who continue to walk with me and there are those who will walk with me that I do not yet know. But there is only one who has walked with me from the start of this journey and walks with me now and will walk with me till the end. Maybe this is a cliche way to speak of him, but that does not make him any less real to me. God is my guide and he does walk with me on my journey. And even though it frightens me sometimes that he walks so close beside me, he doesn't fail to indicate every hole into which I may fall or every root over which I may trip, whether or not I concede to listen to him and take subsequent caution while walking.

new post, new post, la la la la laaa la

2009-12-10T12:45:00.004-05:00

Well, folks, it appears there is to be a new post on Nadine Muis's blog...

Yes, yes there is.

At the moment though, she is fairly unsure of what to write about.

So, I will write about this:

THREE EXAMS ARE DONE!

AND (even more exciting) ONLY SEVEN MORE SLEEEEEPS!!!!!!!!!!

That, my friends, is a mere one week before my homecoming!

[the following must be read with an English accent]

And so, dear ones, I shall be seeing you soon I hope, I very much hope indeed. However, in the aforementioned "mere one week" Nadine has much to do, much to do. And as such, it will be a rather intense week, I should say. Yes, yes rather intense.

And so, without further ado, she is going to pry open her books and partake of some linguistic knowledge. Hmmmm yes, yes she is.

And so, I wish you dear folk good day.

ho hum.

2009-11-25T10:36:00.003-05:00

Well, people, I still exist, I promise.
It's been a little busy out here. But not too busy.
There are only 22 sleeps left today.
I have my first exam (Spanish oral) next Monday.
Auntie Grace and Uncle Eric return to their home next week, I shall miss them.
I have my last exam on Tuesday, December fifteenth.
There is snow on the ground.
I finished my last assignment yesterday (hooray).
It feels like there is not enough time left to get everything I need to do done.
I should probably be worrying regarding exams, but I feel that I'm keeping it together thus far.
On Saturday we are having breakfast with the whole fam and I am pumped. (It's breakfast!)
That's all I got...bye now!

2009-10-24T17:04:00.002-04:00

Well, it's been about a week, so I s'pose I should post again, huh?

Well well well. Yesterday marked halfway for both myself and Lisa. Needless to say, we are both rather excited.

Lucy had her puppies (nine!) this past Tuesday and they are quite enjoyable to look at. :] And hold. Little bundles of warmth, they are.

I've been doing schoolwork, basically all the time. Except yesterday, I went out to see Where the Wild Things Are with Kara, Lisa, and Justin. Quite delightful. I enjoyed it a great deal.

Tonight is Talent Evening at church. I'm pretty excited. My friend Alyson is singing a song and it's so funny. It's called Waitin' for My Dearie and it's from Brigadoon. It promises to be a delightful evening and I'm very much looking forward to observing everyone else's talents.

Yeah, that's all I got. I'm going back to my Linguistics now.

Sincerely,

Nadine

all in all, not a bad thanksgiving.

2009-10-17T17:20:00.005-04:00

So, we went to Jasper.

And saw this:
It was humbling.

Yet, I enjoyed myself immensely. Kara and I spent much of the ride home playing with our cameras. Each taking pictures of ourselves, making silly faces.

people I love.

2009-09-20T00:44:00.002-04:00

I have finally started to put up my pictures. It is helping, definitely therapeutic.

One day, this place could be a real home for me.

It's not home yet, but one day it could be.

2009-09-11T17:57:00.003-04:00

My lovely cousins introduced me to this book when they discovered that I loved buttons.

P.S. I especially love the last photograph.

2009-09-01T20:21:00.000-04:00

Well, here I am.
In Alberta.

More on this another time.

I'm having a cup of soup.

four sleeps.

2009-08-27T16:32:00.005-04:00

God is with me.
God is with me.
God is with me.
God is with me.

I'm going to camp! But only for two days... But I'm going to camp!

2009-08-19T18:24:00.002-04:00

Dear Campfire!,

I can not tell you how immeasurably pumped I am to see you.

I can't believe that I have not seen you at all this year.

Let us make the most of our limited time together, okay?

Sincerely, Nadine

a blue eye and a green eye, all at once.

2009-08-03T20:32:00.003-04:00

even though it's really freaking me out, I can't help but count down.

28 sleeps.

29.

2009-08-02T13:16:00.000-04:00

Dear friends,

I am sorry that I get so cranky when I'm tired.

From Nadine

i kind of like this picture, but i haven't decided why

2009-07-28T22:58:00.004-04:00

I like to think that I have long eyelashes.

39

2009-07-23T21:17:00.003-04:00

39 is the number of nights.

936 is the number of hours.

56160 is the number of minutes.

Yowza. I thought that if I calculated the number of minutes, it would seem longer. Colossal fail.

School actually seems closer than ever. (It doesn't help that Zellers has it's back-to-school sale starting already.)

I'm not that worried about school starting. I'm more worried about what comes with that.

And that means leaving. Leaving here, leaving home. Leaving family, leaving friends.

---

But, when you leave, after a while you get to come back.

Come back here, come back to home. Come back to family, come back to friends.

And while it might be/is hard to think about, plan for, and be in the middle of the in between times, you can think about the before times and the coming home times, can't you?

Sometimes I'm not sure if I can.

39 sleeps.

blueberry blueberry blueberry

2009-07-11T09:31:00.004-04:00

Oh blueberry pancake,

you are so soft and warm;

your whole being crumbles

when it connects with my mouth.

Oh so delicious,

oh so delicious,

blueberry pancake, you are.

One more thing, I painted a shirt today and I'm stoked to wear it. Perchance I will post a photograph at a later date. For now, you must all wait in anticipation.

P.S. My camera takes sweet pictures. I enjoy it immensely.

a little bit scared, but not enough to stop.

2009-07-07T06:55:00.004-04:00

Time is still going very quickly.

And even though it's slightly frightening, I find that right now at this moment I can just watch it go by and be content that everything is occuring in the way that it is.

2009-07-01T17:57:00.002-04:00

jeepers creepers.

there is nothing else i can use to express myself right now.

i am, quite honestly, full of delight and rather overwhelmed.

2009-06-24T17:26:00.003-04:00

If you'll excuse me, I have a date with The Chipmunk Adventure, and I happen to be six decimal four years late. I refuse to keep Alvin, Simon, and Theodore waiting any longer.

for some days disjointed thoughts are the best ones.

2009-06-23T21:51:00.004-04:00

Grey hair is part of what makes you beautiful.

I just don't think you'd understand.

Goal: devote yourself to prayer.

this weekend

2009-06-22T17:58:00.002-04:00

complete recognition:

I suck at patience.

a brand new stove

2009-06-18T21:33:00.002-04:00

I'm as giddy as a drunken man.

(to quote Charles Dickens in A Christmas Carol)

shoelaces

2009-06-12T21:44:00.005-04:00

Here's to pleasurable moments getting ice cream with a few lovely people.

waiting

2009-06-08T21:57:00.001-04:00

trying to convince myself that i really do trust You,

refusing to admit that i need You to trust for me

Oh Ella.

2009-06-08T18:21:00.003-04:00

This woman, in my estimation, is probably wonderful.

Also, I am a large fan of this song.

I suppose it doesn't really matter

2009-06-03T07:12:00.006-04:00

Deziree and I were having fun on the way to church one Sunday morning; this is the result:

some of the eyes of my family:

2009-06-02T19:09:00.002-04:00

gymnastics

2009-06-01T17:44:00.003-04:00

It's June. I still don't know what's going on. Supper is going to be wonderful. There is a yellow lily in a vase on my table and it is resplendent. I enjoy that it exists at this moment. I think that when I live alone, I am going to have various potted plants. I want a hibiscus, like my mom's, but I think I would like a yellow or red one. It smells like pork chops.

the key to a girl's heart is diamonds...

2009-05-28T22:01:00.003-04:00

I disagree. I am pretty sure that the key to my heart is, quite simply, food. Scrumptious and palatable food.

I think food is one of my favourite things in all of creation. (Especially that of the breakfast variation.)

2009-05-25T07:06:00.001-04:00

impatient

just a couple of fruits

2009-05-23T07:37:00.003-04:00

This is us as bananas:This is us...trying to figure out what we would look like as bananas:

queasy

2009-05-20T20:55:00.004-04:00

tired of waiting.
tired of being tired.
wanting to change that.
scared of not knowing where anything is going.
scared of finding out.
losing the concept of time, but
knowing there is a today, a tomorrow, and a Sunday on the horizon.

in a nutshell, that's lately.

pleasurable sigh

2009-05-17T18:06:00.003-04:00

Sometimes I pray with my arms stretched out in front of me and my eyes open and I look at the grass or the people or the trees.

But I don't think God minds.

lately I've been wishing things.

2009-05-13T18:16:00.004-04:00

Sometimes I wish my life was a musical.

And that people wouldn't look at me with an odd, but all too familiar, expression when I burst randomly into song.

P.S. This is from The Music Man, probably my favourite movie at this time.

hello world!

2009-05-10T14:56:00.002-04:00

meet Gertrude.

2009-05-07T18:35:00.002-04:00

This morning I woke up and I was certain that I had missed my flight.

my hands are dirty.

2009-05-04T17:37:00.004-04:00

I have discovered [again] the unwritten law that if an event's month and day number are in fact the same as another event's month and day number then the two events are occuring at the same moment.

This is, at least, the general rule.

Good to know, I suppose, eh?

And, yes, it's true, sometimes I don't want to be with you.

oh, and just one more thing.

2009-04-25T21:03:00.007-04:00

Sometimes I don't mind too much if I look like a fool in pictures. I also don't mind when I take

pictures of random things. Nope, I don't.

Also, sometimes it's enjoyable to read punctuation. I mean, read it. For example, when you read a comma you would say "comma" in your head instead of just leaving a natural break, you know?

Also, occasionally the words "very" and "really" take away from the word they are supposed to be enhancing.

Sometimes I think I just need to stop thinking and get over myself.

blogs are not my forte

2009-04-22T17:45:00.003-04:00

Yesterday marked a momentous occasion.

I bought nail polish.

WHAAAAATTTT?!?!?!

Okay, so, it wasn't so momentous...Flip, it wasn't even an occasion.

Well, this just turned out to be the most useless post ever blogged.

pulchritudinous

2009-04-18T06:58:00.003-04:00

Some days I just feel beautiful...
.
.

even if I have a dirt smear across my chin and cheek

and the clothes I'm wearing make me look frumpy

and my hair is squidged up under a hat.

whaaaaaaat

2009-04-16T21:57:00.004-04:00

Yellow is my six dollar shirt from V.V. Boutique.

And my flip-flops, they're yellow too.

"like a sentimental school boy"

2009-04-13T22:33:00.002-04:00

Do you ever imagine people saying things that you very much long to hear?

...

Sometimes I try to put a lot of words into an action, any action.

...

Sometimes I wonder if God cares that I feel [and look] boyish when I come to meet him. It makes me feel plain and almost immodest.

a sour mood abating, but not yet gone.

2009-04-07T20:59:00.004-04:00

Some days I just try to wear as many different colours as possible.

outage from life.

2009-03-26T18:37:00.002-04:00

I am going to be honest with you, hearing Bong talk about her kids and seeing how much she loves them through that really makes me want to stop working and stop planning for school and just get married and have children. At least three.

That could be a weird thing to state on a blog, but I don't mind.

2009-03-23T17:59:00.001-04:00

...

I guess it's just too easy to find fault in things,

even things that you cherish.

...

2009-03-21T11:43:00.000-04:00

...

Maybe I'll go back to my room cleaning.

Sometimes I really want long hair.

2009-03-17T17:27:00.002-04:00

I don't care what you say; food is exciting.

Can we, please?

2009-03-15T15:35:00.000-04:00

It could be so wonderful.

escalatory sensibilities

2009-03-13T23:07:00.004-04:00

So, I happen to be tired and I happen to have a lot of things requiring contemplation.

Not a very good combination shot because when you are tired, your brain does a lot of wonky things and makes bizarre connections and jumps around a lot.

...

It's hard to make sense of your self, let alone your tired self.

saddle up your cow!

2009-03-10T17:17:00.001-04:00

We're movin' out and movin' on.

stonewashed jeans

2009-03-04T17:15:00.002-05:00

I still like blueberry bagels.

rakin' in the dough

2009-02-25T19:27:00.006-05:00

So even though sometimes you're in a horrid mood and you notice everything awful, you can't help but find pleasure in the moment when you come home from work and you're [quite literally] covered with dirt from head to toe and you walk up the stairs and your only neice comes running at you shouting, "Dadeen!" It's pretty hard not to smile and give her a huge hug and a kiss despite your despicably dirty clothes and fouled mind.

P.S. It's roll up the rim time again.

fail, blunder, muddle, err, flounder, botch, fall, stumble, miscarry, flunk

2009-02-18T18:00:00.009-05:00

Why are you consistently failing at life?

Why is it that you think that is acceptable?

Why can't you do anything productive?

Why do you convince yourself that things are true when they're not?

Why is it that you can not overcome issues?

Why don't you understand your weaknesses?

Why haven't you found your strengths?

Why are your relationships falling apart?

Why are you not doing something to fix anything?

.
How do you feel about that?

What do you think about that?

he's still my favourite.

2009-02-14T10:40:00.008-05:00

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I mean no offence to others who have played this man when I say this, but Christopher Plummer will always and forever be my favourite Captain Von Trapp.

I mean, [insert name here] portrayed him very well in Toronto, but so far only Christopher Plummer has really been able to capture the real depth and character of the Captain and make him into an exceptionally wonderful, though fictional, character.

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But just look at this man. He's lovely!

a quote and a citation.

2009-02-08T13:15:00.007-05:00

"it was a church picnic with 5,000 people; and nobody brought the salad."

Rev. DG - the Feeding of the Five Thousand

Reverend DeGelder, I'm glad you make me laugh when you're preaching. I'm glad you get excited about the words you are saying. I'm glad you really want us to hear.

" "This is for Boris, from me, to have his uniform made..."
..............Anna Mikhailovna was already embracing her and weeping. The countess was also weeping. They wept because they were friends; and because they were kind; and because they, who had been friends since childhood, were concerned with such a mean object - money; and because their youth was gone . . . But for both of them they were pleasant tears . . . "

L. Tolstoy - War and Peace

Tolstoy, I'm glad you put these words together so that I could make a decision to read them, but not because I had to. I'm glad that you went out of your way to put them beside one another and to alter their meaning ever so slightly with the words that you surrounded them with. I'm glad that you existed and that you left something behind from your existence so that I can share in it, even though you have been gone for about ninety-nine years now.

a favourite.

2009-02-03T19:10:00.011-05:00

This girl is one of my favourite people alive right now.

Also, she is probably the most fantastic individual out there.
Although, I'm pretty biased.

darn chilliness

2009-01-30T17:56:00.003-05:00

I discovered recently that I have a considerably low tolerance for frigid temperatures.

If I am doing something active (i.e. walking, running, dancing, etc.) cold temperatures are bearable. However, if I am sitting in a building it had better be warm in there!

No, it's not that bad. I just don't like being cold inside of buildings.
I like cold air, but not feeling cold. Trust me, there is a difference.

I also learned lately that I speak ridiculously loud.

help get trevor out of here!

2009-01-22T15:02:00.002-05:00

Hey guys, there's going to be a slick fundraiser to help get Trevor to Nigeria.
It's on February 13th at 8 pm. In Dundas, at Collin's Brewhouse.
Go here to see all the information.

P.S. Woo!

more to come, perhaps later.

2009-01-20T13:31:00.003-05:00

I'm afraid this is what occurs when you are stuck in a car for about 17 hours with the same people.

I don't really want to talk about this one.

Proud parent!

Ichabod Crane Service!

This should not need any explanation as to why it's absolutely hilarious.

Some really neat shells with some really neat innards.

you know what I think?

2009-01-14T18:50:00.002-05:00

you know what I think?

I was gearing up to write a post about how I think the word "gorgeous" is quite ridiculous, but then I got distracted by the title of this post.

you know what I think?

Why does it really matter what I think?
Of what worth have I proven my thoughts?
What have I ever done to make my thoughts something that you should hear? Something that may be important to you? Something that could mean anything to you? Something that you need to make and take time to read?

Honestly, ponder that for a bit.

1 Corinthians 4:10-13

2009-01-13T10:21:00.005-05:00

The apostles:

fools for Christ
weak
dishonoured
hungry, thirsty, in rags, brutally treated, homeless
work hard with own hands
when cursed, respond with blessing
when persecuted, respond with endurance
when slandered, respond with kindness
the scum of the earth, the refuse of the world
like MEN condemned to DIE in the arena

The corinthians:

so wise in Christ
strong
honoured
rich
like KINGS

this is stupid.

2009-01-12T20:49:00.003-05:00

I'm exhausted and I didn't even do anything today. At least, nothing out of the ordinary.

Good night. I'm going to bed.

that's all

2009-01-11T00:58:00.001-05:00

My ears are peeling.

In other news, it's practically one o'clock.

dunh dunh duuuuunh

2009-01-09T15:04:00.004-05:00

so...

if any of you recall that i was complaining about my straightener disappearing once, a long time ago (about half a year in fact) you no longer have to worry about my furthured irritation, although i don't think i've even brought it up in at least five months, so really you're no better off than you were).

i have recovered my lost straightener. and guess where it was. no, not under my bed, although that was the first place i looked when it was lost.

here's the scoop: i was in my little brother's room because i wanted to commandeer one of his spectacular white t-shirts of which he has about five and of which also he has stained about four. in any case, i was trying to scout out one of said t-shirts and instead, i opened a drawer and kablam-o. there it was. my long-lost straightener. though i was sure and certain that i had asked him at least four times (probably more...) if he had it (because, honestly, who else would have taken it?). but no, no he said, i don't have it.

oh man. heads will roll when he gets home from school. or maybe i'll just play it cool and wait for him to realize he is straightener-less and see how he likes it... hehhehe

2009-01-06T11:31:00.003-05:00

sometimes home is the most splendid place in the world.

sometimes is now.

goodbye.

2008-12-25T23:39:00.003-05:00

dear all:
I'm leaving in a few hours (that is, approximately three). I hope that I get to see you when I come home again.
In any case, I hope you had a wonderful Christmas Day.
I also hope that you enjoy whatever family or friend involved goings-on you have planned for the Christmas and New Year's season.
That's all I wanted to say to you.

From, Nadine

2008-12-22T00:37:00.006-05:00

I like to think that I have an exceptionally expressive face.

And, you know what? Maybe that's not true, but I think that might be okay with me. Even so, I sure like to think it all the same.

By the way, today I don't feel like going to sleep, even though I am excessively fatigued.

sometimes it is funny, even if I don't laugh.

2008-12-18T20:55:00.006-05:00

You know what I've learned lately? A few things about one thing actually. Well, sort of.

Sometimes people tease you and you get really mad.

Sometimes people tease you and you get mad but you don't really know why because what they're saying is kind of true.

Sometimes people tease you and you're actually kind of glad that they noticed something in order to tease you about it, even though it makes you blush. It just seems lame at the time to say that you're glad they noticed, especially after they took the time and effort to think up a good tease.

Sometimes people tease you and you think you should be more mad than you are and maybe that makes you act in a certain way.

Sometimes people are able to tease you because they know you really well. That's a delightful way to think of it.

Sometimes people tease you and it's really not so bad as you think it is. Especially when it's something that kind of makes you at least as happy as it makes you embarassed.

P.S. By "you" I actually mean "me". I know, very tricky.

eyelash+cheek=happy

2008-12-09T17:55:00.003-05:00

You know those times when you're smiling so hugely that you can feel your eyelashes on your cheeks?

It's one of the nicest feelings in the world.

2008-12-07T10:16:00.006-05:00

dear future hypothetical boyfriend:
When we get together, let's do things like go for walks, even in winter because wintry walks are often the prettiest. Or let's watch a movie at one of our houses and then talk through it, because movies can't contain all of my attention, unless it's a very interesting or suspenseful movie, in which case I'll probably be asking you what's happening because I will probably have missed some critical occurence in the story as I am easily distracted.
In any case, let's spend time doing things together and enjoying each other's existence and sometimes each other's silence, because silence is a beautiful gift.

dear all:
I want to see you soon.

something you may not have known about me...

2008-12-02T15:30:00.004-05:00

I really like buttons.

Also, it has been a long-time ambition of mine to buy a coat and put several buttons on it.

Yesterday I bought a coat.

Today I put buttons on it.

Button-putting-on is going to be a gradual thing...although I did put a lot on today, I'm going to slowly put more and more buttons on my coat until I want to stop or until the majority of the fabric is covered in buttons, which ever comes first.

In any case, ask me to show you sometime, please? Although, if you see me and ask me, you probably won't really need to ask anymore [as I will almost definitely be wearing said coat with buttons on it]. Well, you can just pretend you didn't see yet...just say you were temporarily blind.

I'm rather ridiculously excited about it. It may even be scandalous to be as excited as I am at this moment.

P.S. If you ever want to get me a gift, get a fabulously beautiful button. For example, one in the shape of a rubber duck.

I'm havin' a thought here, Barbossa...

2008-11-30T22:09:00.003-05:00

Here's something I find immensely interesting:

You know how you do your hair in the morning (or whenever else you do your hair...) and you always part it on the same side, and you look in the mirror and there it is! on that side. But then, you look at a picture of yourself from the same day and there it is! that part of yours is on the other side. I find it immensely interesting that I think I look ridiculous in pictures with my part on the other side, but in the mirror it looks pretty okay.

Maybe I should try parting my hair on the other side...just for interest's sake, you know?

this is a total of three grandiose things.

2008-11-28T10:02:00.003-05:00

Breaking news:

MOM. MADE. JAM!

Aaaaaand!

MOM. MADE. CROQUETTE. GOOP!

One more thing!

MOM. IS. WONDERFUL!

2008-11-25T19:23:00.002-05:00

collect bookoo bucks!

Addendum:
Donuts are very very sugary...especially when you haven't had one in approximately four or five months. Now I remember why I don't like them.

finding enjoyment

2008-11-20T10:00:00.005-05:00

I enjoy the fact that I can sit inside on a snowy day next to the wood stove with my cat and drink tea.

I enjoy the fact that I can be sorry and you can forgive me.

I enjoy the fact that I can speak with my minister and he understands me and doesn't pretend that he knows everything; he speaks back as another sinful human being who struggles just like me.

I enjoy the fact that I can write letters with people and still get replies back, even though we are in the supposed "Technology Age" or something.

I enjoy the fact that I don't know everything because it means there is still so much more to learn.

I enjoy the fact that my family really likes music, because I am a part of it and I can partake in that music and almost live to the beat.

I enjoy the fact that on the bus at school I draw pictures and write words on my binder because other people look at what I'm writing and drawing and think about it.

I enjoy the fact that I am never finished my 'To Do' List because it means I should never be bored.

I enjoy the fact that I day-dream because it makes me laugh.

I enjoy the fact that I am able to learn because it means I will try.

I enjoy the fact that music exists so I can hear it and love it.

I enjoy the fact that sometimes I just sit and be happy that I exist.

I enjoy the fact that I can speak because it means I can convey thoughts to others...sometimes.

I enjoy the fact that I can still be bored, sometimes bored is a great place to be.

I enjoy the fact that I can feel my cat on my legs because it means that we are real.

I enjoy the fact that I can wake up in the morning and feel terrified and my heart is beating far faster than normal and I am curled into a ball and I glance around my room in fear because it means I have an imagination and that I dream.

I enjoy the fact that I have a family and I know them.

I enjoy the fact that I am light-hearted because it means that I laugh a lot.

I enjoy the fact that my eyes change colour because I can check them every morning and have a surprise.

I enjoy the fact that one of the buttons is falling off my coat because it means I'll get to fix it soon.

I enjoy the fact that I exist because it means I can see people, and talk to them, and feel their presence, and be with them.

I enjoy the fact that I have eyes because I can see the beautiful colours of God's creation.

I enjoy the fact that things exist that I don't necessarily like because I can be taught to appreciate them even though I don't like them.

I enjoy the fact that there are words I don't know so that I look them up in a dictionary.

I enjoy the fact that there are tomorrows and todays and yesterdays.

I enjoy the fact that I love my family [cousins (honorary and unavoidable), aunts (honorary and unavoidable), uncles (honorary and unavoidable), nieces, sisters, parents, grandparents included] because it means I can spend time with them and enjoy that they exist and that we coexist.

I enjoy the fact that there are people I look up to and can look up to.

I enjoy the fact that there is tea for cold, snowy mornings.

I enjoy the fact that people make sounds and that I can see it as sound, not just noise.

I enjoy the fact that sometimes jokes go way over my head and I think about them later (a lot later) and I finally understand them and then I laugh very hard.

I enjoy the fact that people recognize you even if you change your hair colour.

hoping for no grumpiness in the morning...maybe?

2008-11-18T02:32:00.002-05:00

I've done all I can here.

Bed time. woo!

no punctuation

2008-11-17T09:56:00.002-05:00

this morning when I woke up I looked at my bedroom wall and was filled with an urge to rip off all the pictures and texts that cover it

im not sure why this was

grey eyes today.

2008-11-13T09:55:00.003-05:00

Today I have no hairspray in my hair. Zero. Zippo. None. Nil. Zilch.
I kind of like it.
My hair feels soft and it's not crunchy at all......I may have to do this again sometime.

Hooray for no hair products!

2008-11-09T23:07:00.005-05:00

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devote yourselves to prayer

2008-11-06T08:41:00.003-05:00

de⋅vote /dɪˈvoʊt/ [di-voht]
–verb (used with object), -vot⋅ed, -vot⋅ing.
1. to give up or appropriate to or concentrate on a particular pursuit, occupation, purpose, cause, etc.: to devote one's time to reading.
2. to appropriate by or as if by a vow; set apart or dedicate by a solemn or formal act; consecrate: She devoted her life to God.

prayer /prɛər/ [prair]
–noun
1. a devout petition to God or an object of worship.
2. a spiritual communion with God or an object of worship, as in supplication, thanksgiving, adoration, or confession.
3. the act or practice of praying to God or an object of worship.
4. a formula or sequence of words used in or appointed for praying: the Lord's Prayer.
5. prayers, a religious observance, either public or private, consisting wholly or mainly of prayer.
6. that which is prayed for.
7. a petition; entreaty.

This is what I'm thinking about.
And how I'm faithfully failing at it.

much thinking is being done.

2008-11-02T17:02:00.002-05:00

what about?

you probably shouldn't ask.

bank tellers are people too.

2008-10-27T20:25:00.002-04:00

sometimes I forget.

Today I went to the bank. The bank teller asked if I had an older brother and I hesitantly said, "yes, I have three." Then she asked if one of them was going to Mexico and I, again hesitantly, answered yes. I was in the process of asking how she knew this when she told me that he had been there earlier and she recognized the last name.

In the car, I told Christopher the story. He laughed. I told him that she had just blown my mind. I had forgotten that bank tellers are people too.
They have brains, and livers, too.

2008-10-27T17:34:00.002-04:00

Sometimes it feels like Satan is all-powerful, but I think that God lets Satan think that he is gaining the upper hand sometimes, God allows Satan to be "in charge" of a situation before acting himself. Before taking that situation and moulding it.

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God is a strategist.

He is fighting a battle and He will not lose.

inexpressible and glorious joy?

2008-10-23T18:50:00.003-04:00

"These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls."

1 Peter 1:7-9

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Two weeks ago, on a Saturday, I felt closer to GOD than I had in a long time.

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Now I realize: it was a One Night Stand.

today my eyes are green

2008-10-19T09:49:00.007-04:00

Sometimes, when my brother is playing guitar, I take a glass of milk and two cookies and I go downstairs. I sit in the room next to his on the pull-out couch. I have my pajamas on and I wrap myself up in the blue blanket my eldest sister gave me for Christmas four years ago. And I listen. Sometimes he plays songs that I know and I sing the words softly to myself so he won't know I'm listening. At other times he plays songs I don't know or songs he wrote and I make up my own words or I just listen and soak the music in, it's like I can feel it seeping into the pores of my skin. Sometimes I think about things, lots of things, difficult things. Sometimes he sings and I smile to myself and enjoy the beauty. Sometimes I'm glad I sit alone and I think that I wouldn't enjoy it as much if I had to share it, but that's a lie. I would like to share it with special people. Sometimes I wish I could sit there forever. I think I could be happy if I could sit alone, cuddled in my blanket, eating cookies, drinking milk, listening to my brother for the rest of my life.

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And then he stops and the silence replaces the music and seeps into the pores of my skin. It makes me feel cold and lonely and that is when I wish someone else was there. Someone special who would hold me and let me know that I'm not alone. Sometimes it seems like I can feel GOD's presence in those moments. But yesterday, it felt like He was gone, gone and not coming back.

2008-10-16T08:48:00.000-04:00

water tastes better when it falls from the sky in fast-moving droplets

a new post contains enough excitement for several moments

2008-10-13T08:44:00.003-04:00

Why don't nutella jars have flaps on the foil that you have to pull off in order to get to the chocolate-y goodness inside? Are they trying to make it impossible to pull off the foil all in one go? I mean, really, aren't you supposed to make it easy to get at the stuff inside? That's what we're waiting for, that's why we keep buying nutella!

Yeesh, maybe I should file a complaint or something.
That would teach them to make anti-flap foil.

2008-10-12T09:06:00.002-04:00

Jeepers creepers, where'd you get those peepers?

I am very much looking forward to church today. Really and truly.

2008-10-09T21:02:00.004-04:00

So, my brother and I are now staying home this weekend together, instead of going camping with the rest of my family. Sad, eh?

However, now I'll have no distractions to stop me from studying. And that's a good thing.........right?

I just clued in to the fact that I must now forego Thanksgiving dinner! What is that all about!?!?!

inexpressible and glorious joy

2008-10-05T08:45:00.004-04:00

Yesterday I discovered the joy of being where GOD wanted me to be.
It coincided with where I wanted me to be, which made it even more beautiful.

I've been thinking about beauty

2008-10-01T16:00:00.005-04:00

there's something strangely beautiful and romantic about someone walking alone in the rain,
with her hair sticking to her scalp because of the droplets attacking her,
ignoring the mocking smiles of those who are still perfect, safely huddled under their umbrellas

2008-09-29T17:05:00.002-04:00

"How many of you believe in God?
How many of you have met God?"

silence.

a quote from a lecture I sat through this afternoon.